This is an account of how i healed an aspect of myself from a past life.
Inner journeywork continues to show me aspects of myself that require healing, and absolving.
When we say that we have aspects of ourselves, it helps to have an understanding that we exist in a holographic and multi dimensional space where everything, all thoughts, actions and emotions are connected.
This is a profound and sometimes difficult to process fact. Yet time and time again we are shown how the mind and the body are connected, and the next level for us is to come to a realisation that the mind, our consciousness, and different realities are also connected and have ripple effects upon us.
I used to think that the word ‘wholeness’ meant to be whole in body and mind, but now I realise that wholeness (maybe the word holy?) means to be whole, complete and unified within all aspects of your being, which includes the aspects of ourselves that are holographic and multidimensional.
There are many physics theories that support this and I trust that if you are into your healing and spiritual journey, you have a bit of a handle on them, including the String Theory, Quantum Jumping, Quantum Entanglement, the Many Worlds Theory, and the Simulation Theory.
Beyond theories though, I personally have seen, felt and connected to other aspects of myself living in other dimensions, other times and other places. I have consistently seen this with clients as well.
So what does this mean? How is it all connected to our present life experience?
This is a very deep journey that you will come to see within yourself. It is not a course or textbook process. Each of us has experienced in this life and other lives so many emotions, actions and experiences . Some of them are still very relevant to our present life. Sometimes we have emotions or memories that we just cant shift with self discipline . Sometimes deep seated fears arise that we have no recollection about how they got there, or if we think we do , they can be connected to a more distant timeline, keeping us in a loop of constantly similar circumstances and experiences.
Bit by bit as we become more proficient at reading and observing our inner self, how we react and how things correspond in our outer physical world, we get closer to detecting where the original source of the emotion or problem came from.
I have always had a very deep seated feeling of being imprisioned, and punished for something that I had not done. Over the years many healers had also detected this. Yet for some reason, while I felt I had done my best to free this aspect of myself, I hadn’t realised what was also keeping her captive.
Your Higher self has a way of waiting until you are really ready or you have specifically asked that you have the insights to become whole. Sometimes your Higher Self helps you by chipping aways smaller pieces of pain and trauma to eventually reveal the big one. It knows that it takes time to adjust to the different stages of healing and self realisation.
And so after calling back all aspects of my Self, or shall I say ‘commanding’ all aspects of my total Self to come into true wholeness and alignment, things began to happen. Lets say that if you’re serious so is the Higher Self!
I came to this space of mind and determination because like many people at this time, I know that there is a new version of reality coming into existence . Many people are also feeling that there is something new that they want to, or are meant to create. Many people are realising that things are needing different approaches and that the old ways are becoming obsolete. It has to do with heart, alignment and truth.
People who are awakening are telling me that they cant create the new without being totally aligned with their True Self. I had been feeling this too. It was like I was not allowing myself to move forward until every part of me had complete integrity, wholeness and truth.
After a couple of recent clients who felt the same way, with journeywork, we uncovered the reasons and events of the past and the resultant emotions that were either blocking or trying to highlight important shifts that they could make. Each person is so different in their experience and each has amazing stories and narrative that are more absorbing than anything the entertainment industry could devise!
On with my recent story.
While recently I had in journeywork released an aspect of myself who was in a past life captured and imprisioned in a impoverished cave for something she had not done, I had not fully relinquished something else that had held her there.
While I had taken off the shackles and opened the door of the cave prison, it wasn’t until after the next week that physical and emotional experiences began to occur in my life highlighting that there were two extra things that were holding her there.
The first one was a dark spell that had been put upon her to incur the punishment of another, and the other was the deep emotional and painful feeling of having to endure punishment for others , obligation to pay for others and responsibility for others. In short , this aspect of myself, although she had not committed the crime she was accused of, felt ( thru black magic) that she should bear the burden of responsibility and punishment for others.
How this was all uncovered in the physical is such an in depth book length account, but suffice to say, I was put in a very emotional and physical experience where I literally felt sick in my body with responsibility and fear of punishment for something that was not my fault. I knew that I had to see deeply what was holding my body and mind hostage. I could recall the same feeling throughout my life, and I clearly saw the patterning.
After a sleepless and uncomfortable night with no relief, I decided to go to a market that I don’t visit regularly. After sitting for a while in the heat and trying to release the pain of my body, mind and emotion, I saw a lady doing intuitive healing and card readings. Normally I don’t venture into another persons domain such as this, but when I looked at her booking schedule and I looked at the present time, it was spot on. 9am . I waited 3 seconds and then I had my sitting. Besides many other ‘coincidences’, the lovely woman detected yet again , the punishment and imprisionment unduly imposed on me. She detected some black magic as well and we worked on clearing it there and then. Straight away I felt a an energy swoosh past behind me and noticed the woman who was sitting across from me look up and detect the energy. As I turned to look at what this was, I saw the back of a man, dressed in black holding a cane of some sort with which he pushed onto the large tree that was next to us. The woman commented on the energy and we cleared that as well. It seemed to be alerted when we had done the spell clearing of the other life. Very interesting to observe how this work shows up in the physical.
After a couple of days when I had journeyed in to check on how my other aspect was doing, she was glowing and free, standing strong . I asked what she would say to be and immediately I received the word ‘Absolved’. I kind of knew what the word meant but I wanted a deeper review and so I looked it up in the dictionary and it said, “ releasing someone from blame or sin. Loosening the hold that responsibility or guilt has on a person. To be released from punishment, obligation or responsibility. To pronounce one to be not guilty”.
And so I sat with this aspect of myself soaking up the feeling of being absolved completely. She needed not to only have her shackles removed and the prison door open, but to be totally absolved at every level, so that in this experience and all experiences that I create, I am released from undue blame and punishment. No more martyrdom, over responsibility or taking blame for others.
Phew what a ride. Inner work is always deep and it will always show up in your body, mind, emotions and experiences.
Bit by bit, we return to our whole Eternal True Self.
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